As you can see from the previous post, I’ve alread turned lazy and decided to stop counting cause it’s getting pretty lame and no one’s reading this stupid blog!! It’s just gonna be for my own account of my life.
This week is the first week of December. The first december in my whole life that I still have no holidays yet!!! Thanks to polytechnic calendars, I’m still schooling!! But I thank god for the fact that I don’t have exams, so I don’t needa really study. But my assignment is really killing me.
In fact, I supposed December is supposed to be one of my best months of the year cause there’s my two favourite events; my birthday and christmas 
But, the first week was really a disappointing week and so, unexpected ):
It’s been a tough week for me, really tough. I went through lots of different situations everyday and the emotions I had, was just indescribable.
But I thank God, I had all settled and I was really really relieved until yesterday, I had a pretty huge arguement with my boyfriend. It made me feel that our relationship was all wrong. And yes, I did thought of giving up despite whatever we’ve gone through. The thought of it now still saddens me. And I feel so guilty of screwing my life just within one week. I don’t know who can do it, but, I just did it. So, it’s kinda tested and proven that one week is enough for you to screw your life. HAHA. Not funny.
Now, I have another situation that I’ve really been ignoring, to be exact, for the past one year. And now, I am made to work on that situation, so, it’s either I do it good or I screw it. I don’t wanna make everything good already, cause I don’t think it’s worth it, but for the sake of my church leaders and those people around me, I have to.
There’s this girl who’s also the same age as me, I shall not name her as to protect her identity, although, if you know, please just shut up. LET’S CALL HER S. Omg, so obvious, but who cares? She’s currently in the same region as I am. We have totally conflicting personalities, honestly, in other words, I don’t like her. BUT, I DON’T JUDGE PEOPLE THAT QUICKLY. When I was still with the sharks, we exchanged glances or so, know each other by names, noticed how each other talk, work and do everything.
Then when I knew I was moving to region A, I was asked to choose my ycg that I wanted to attend. So, Joyce and Aikkhim were filling me up with details like, who’s in which ycg. Then, you know when people talk, we tend to sidetrack and we suddenly talked about that girl. Joyce told me that S did mention to her before that S didn’t like me. I was like, wow? ok. I didn’t really like her either. So, as usual, I always avoid people like S. So, blah. And please, I don’t like fake people too k. S had to totally fake and act her all-great self and tried to act friends. OK. I acted along. blah. I just totally didn’t put that into heart and forgot about it.
IT’S ONLY RECENTLY, when we were changing our ycg host when we were told that S is going to be our new host!! Omg. I was like, omg. But yeah, I decided to act like all normal and just continue attending and everything. The sian thing also is that both of us are in the reanactment for the Christmas thing!! I also had to act like everything was fine til a recent phonecall that made everything real sour and this incident was also brought up to Pastor, youth overseer, leaders and in-charge for reanactment! So embarassing cause, honestly, I wasn’t the one who was really making the damn huge fuss about it. It’s such a long story yet I am blogging this out, but I’m seriously damn unhappy about it, making me look like as though I’m one of the also, hard-to-please member. HI, I never gave problems when I was with the sharks for 7years!! Omg. time flew so fast!
Ok. What happened is that, she’s just seriously testing my patience and niceness to her! I seriously have no idea what’s with her ego, but I swear. I feel like I’m such a weakling if I don’t make my stand in front of her! She’s just seriously childish and thinking about this is like, pissing me off. I’m just ignoring her and not responding to her just because I really do not want to make this really huge and cause another problem to my leader, I think she’s so poor thing ): But, it’s really a test of my patience.
Testing of patience, started and ending soon. ):
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